Uh-Oh

I was saying goodbye to Mayhew when I heard a loud scream behind me. "Daddy!"

Oh no! I completely lost track of time. Alice is in high school now and comes home so much earlier than she used to. She must have been in her bedroom with her trees. I didn't even see her come in.

I got Mayhew out the door fast and tried to make excuses to Alice. But I know that there's no excuse for this. Man, I'd been so good for so long but I really messed up. Again.

Why do I keep hurting the people I love? Will Alice ever trust me again? Will she tell Chloe?

I have to admit that I hid out for most of the evening. I just avoided everyone in the family the rest of the night. Once it was dark, I even hid out on the roof with the telescope. I just can't face anyone right now.

(As told by Alice)

Dear Journal - Dad's been hiding ever since he got busted after school. I mean, really! He's always told me to talk things through, but him? Nah, he pouts. Geez.

I haven't told Momma what I saw. She doesn't need that kinda pain anymore. Yeah, I know what he was like before. I found some old letters and cards from flowers.

OK, now I getting really ticked off! I know he's up on the roof. I'm fed up with this. I'm going up there to confront him and make him see how badly he messed up.